little thoughts

Take out every light.

Look up.

From what I can recall so far… I had a horrible toothache. You were in front of a pillar of some sort in your dress next to three other small pillars with jars atop. I reached into my mouth and pulled out three of my teeth. On each toot was a different ring. One black, one gold shaped as the sun and one dark purple with an oddlly designed band. You smiled as I put each tooth into a separate jar.

We went to the upper deck to be wed. My vows had been said and done. Everyone I knew watched as you told me you don’t love me. You just met and fucked some other guy. He was at the ceremony. I ran back down stairs to get my teeth back. The jars were filled with teeth. I gave up and ran off the ship.

I ran off of the ship and onto land. I ran into the city in my suit of black. My scarlet tie waving to the side. My aunt pulled up behind me and began to yell at me. She made me feel so pathetic for running from you. From not just being nice and forgiving you. I don’t get why they liked you so much… 

It’s Christmas time and now I’m hanging out with you, he and my family. I ignore you and act like a major dick. Why wouldn’t I? The whole thing was fucked up… eventually I woke up.

I think I fell in love with her the moment we stepped on that train…

One day, I’ll burn every memory I’ve ever had of you. But I’ll be sure to keep the three things I always thought the sweetest. My memento’s of my former love.

  So I know a cat, straight fuckin Lady Killer. Guy can make any girl wet with his words, his looks… He makes all of them wet. Now; this cat’s always had quite the decent life, never had to work a day. He was just never satisfied. His thirst never quenched. Pallet never full. He’s made it his life to bed bitches and leave in the morning. It was much too easy for him… a mere game.

  One day we go to one of the places he lurks on his prey. He sees her, sets his sights. This chick… well she wasn’t a fink, that’s for fuckin sure. First woman we’d ever known to turn him down since… fuck man, I don’t even know! But of course my boy didn’t think it right to quit. This girl though, she saw right fuckin through the little dog and pony show. We left. Just he and I.

  Fuckin asshole kept draggin me back to that same goddamned shithole for a week… Bitch never fuckin showed. I knew she was smarter than that. He refused to accept it, ha. Finally I convince him the broad ain’t gonna go there anymore. By this time he got a couple more kills under his belt. He still craves her.

  Months have passed, I’ve never seen him more on edge. Nothing distracts him from finding her… Not for long, anyway. I barely know this guy anymore. I spend every other day with him. All he talks about is this stupid fucking girl. He knows nothing of her… he can describe her to a T. I thought he just didn’t want to be beat… it’s frightening, almost, how badly he just wants another taste of her. Honestly, she wasn’t much to look at. I’d say he was obsessed. Maybe this is what he needed though. Something more than drugs and meaningless sex…

  He bumped into her today. At least, that’s what I got out of all his ramblings… He looked crazed. Happy. I hadn’t seen him this way since we were younger than. Christ, since we were just children. He show’s me digits… he notices a question forming in my face. Before I have a chance to open my mouth. “I apologized to her.”

  She’s always around. Like she’s one of the boys… bitch took my place. But what the fuck do I care, I’m no fag. He hasn’t even fucked her yet. Shit, I think they just started kissing. He’s calm; always so calm now. Guess she can do what simple camaraderie can’t. As long as he’s satiated, right? … He calls her, Daisy.

  Daisy called me today. I didn’t answer. Why would I. She took him. There’s a knock. Fucking cunt is at the door… Nevermind. I haven’t seen him in a month. I have… just not often. Only when he needs something. I haven’t said anything other than hi. “The wonders of romance… such a peculiar little emotion. Love” He tells me he fucked her shortly after. Silence is broken once again by my telephone. It’s Daisy. I don’t answer. He does a line. He offers some to me… I do a line. We go out to celebrate. He plays his game for the first time since he showed me her number. They’re all defenseless. Daisy calls again… I don’t answer.

Every night… every night, I crave her. I starve for her touch. Every night, I just want to see her. In nothing. Please, just stand in front of me in only your flesh… it’s so beautiful, your skin. I want to grasp you so tight, kissing you on your neck, I long to hear you coo in pleasure as I touch you everywhere you like.

Every night, I just want to become one with her… in mind and especially in body. I just want to make love to her, without end. I want to hear her gasp, to have her breathe heavy in my ear as she takes me in all the way. Her hands clawing my back, coursing through my hair. I want to bite her lip and caress her tongue with my own.

Every night I just want to fuck you.